went to see doctor in the afternoon, due to the bad condition of my hand.
its really dried up and is cracking everywhere, skins peeling and the whole palm itch.
from the fingertips to the palms and the side, really terrible. =x

after seeing the doctor, went home and sulked, cause of elton and dad again.


elton didnt want to do his homework properly and i got stern at him and got screamed by dad cause i was trying to teach elton why he shouldnt get angry at everything little thing.

dad told us not to get at angry at elton if not elton's temper will get even worse since he gets angry, screams and hit everything everytime we get angry at him.
but, if he gets angry, i have to tell him the reason and teach him not to right?
i can already see improvement on his temper even though he still gets angry whenever i reason with him.
it's gonna improve.
but i always get scolded by dad cause of this and the commotions made by elton while reasoning.

wa kao, he not even my kid and i get scolded cause i wanna teach him when his mum and dad just leave him to be.
he's not even my kid and i already felt like i've been married for 10 years and suddenly got a new born kid so i have the responsibility to stay at home every single day to take care of him and teach him when his mother doesnt even do that.
kao. im only 19.

and suddenly elton becomes my responsibility cause im taking care of him for a long time already and they even forgot that elton has a second sister who has the capability of taking care of him too.
evelyn's 17 and she is not does not have to doing do the things im doing cause only im the older sister doing this for a long time.

nb, im already doing all these things when im 17.
all she does is complain when i laugh loudly at the variety show im watching when she's in bed, when she didnt even do anything.
if not for those shows i get to laugh at while at home, i might already gotten depression and is in the imh now.

i dont mind taking care of him and teaching him and all but.
not my kid and im being blame for all he does.
IM NOT THE ONE WHO GAVE BIRTH TO HIM.

its all because of dad's scolding that i started to realise i shouldnt even care so much since nobody cares.
not even like asking him to go brush his teeth after he wakes up, like i did in the past, cause after the commotion he makes, its me getting scolded again.

the more you do, the more wrongs you get.
the lesser you do, the lesser wronging you get. just like evelyn.
i feel so fucking wronged.

if they allow him to continue like this whenever dad scolds me when i teach him,
i'll cut off my head if elton doesnt grow up to have a sucky temper like dad

fuck.



finished sulking and went out to meet ivan, wanted to meet him earlier so i wont have to stay at home but still.
reached tampines and met him at tampines control station.
went to ajisan to have dinner since i was having sudden cravings for that.

i shall take the bento and not the ramen next time.

went to topshop to look for joanna's present since she said she wanted a shirt from there.
went to times bookshop and couldnt find the book i want.
bumped into roy and chiying there.
and they crapped.

went downstairs to buy bubble tea and the favourite honey chicken wings =D
and walked to ivan's house there to sit and talk.
cause ivan wanted to buy drink from the ntuc, we passed by the cake shop and it smells of waffle! so i ended up buying a waffle too.
it's all ivan's fault that i bought so much food =D

wanted to walk to the fitness station there to talk but it's too far, we sat at the pavillion instead. and talked till 1045 and took the bus home.